It has happened in my family again, cancer has reached out. This time it picked my sister, which is not really fair at all. My sister has so much already to deal with. Her three girls, and a mental ex husband should have been enough for fate to pass over her. She doesn't need cancer, she needs a nanny to help her. She is braver than she will ever give herself credit for being. The words cancer and fate are often used in the same sentence, to talk about the ones we love.
I love my sister, and I hate to talk about her as having cancer, she didn't want it. Cancer picked her, and fate can go fuck itself. I'm so weary from bad things striking the best people. Yeah, the best! My sister is one of the best people, I have the honor of knowing, and as I write this she is going through one of worst things to ever happen to her. I guess that could be debated since her ex husband is who he is.
Never the less, she has cancer, and I have to stop comparing what she is going through to what our mother went through. You see our mother died almost 15 years ago, it was cancer that took her too. It all started in much the same way for our mother, as it is starting for my sister.
I don't pray often at all, but the one thing I pray for is that my sister will not have to fight cancer off and on for years. I can only pray and hope that this will pass, without my sister asking for fresh peaches as she struggles to stay alive. Peaches were the last food my mother ate, before she lost her fight with cancer and fate.
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There seems to be a link with peaches and cancer. That is also the last food my Grandfather asked for before he died from cancer. One of the most wonderful humans I had the pleasure of knowing, kind, gentle and patient, much like your sister. He was a mere 68 lbs. when he took his medication with a shot of whiskey to end his fight with cancer. Did it win? Did he? Does it matter? He did decide his own fate in the end. Peaches, cancer and whiskey.
I do not often comment on your journal, but I must on this topic. Your sister truly deserves the best in life, a truly nicer, more caring person is not to be found. She has her hands full already and certainly doesn't deserve this. But you are right, you must see a different outcome for her. She will have her own story, he own battle, that has already been different from your Mom's. Rachel needs to be allowed to let this be her story and not have everyone comparing it to her Mom's. She needs people to hurt and empathize because SHE has cancer, not because Mom had it. She herself has a hard time separating the issue in her mind. I don't know how to help any of you do it, I only know it's best if you do. Rachel will overcome, I don't see peaches in her future, and neither does she. It's not denial either. We have talked about it, I for one just don't think it's her fate....and like you I pray it isn't.
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