Another Day...

Most days seem to pass with out much to do, yet a few stand out. Today wasn't one of them to brag about, but a few things made it different. Yet, it started out the same, and is ending much the same :-)

I talked with my ex wife for over an hour, without losing my temper, or being to frustrated, but them again the Xanax helps... JK! I was very happy to hear that she has a new companion in her life and seems happy. Yet, something just didn't feel right about what she said about him, nothing major, just a feeling. It has taken a long time for her to find someone that meets all of her qualifications, no idea what they are, but I'm sure he must be nothing like me.

In Fact I was not a very good husband in many ways, but at the time it was the best I could do. In her words today, "It has taken her a long time to trust." I once again did apologize for the pain I had caused her. I'm sure that I'm a much better ex husband, than I was as a husband.

Our conversation was focused around our son, and was a bunch of questions about how he is doing in all the different aspects of his life. It has been about four months since he has spent any time with his Mom, they were having issues for a good while and it finally reached a breaking point in late December. Since them he has been living with me full time.

I'm very conflicted about this issue, I don't feel like I should help her at all, due to her past actions. Overwhelming that is my concern as a father for my son, to repair this most important relationship with his Mother, so I try to help her with hints, advice, etc. I talk to my son endlessly about what has happened, and how he must take steps to correct it, alas it falls on deaf ears and a closed mind. I guess time will tell, and heal, as always.